30 Days of September: Day 13
For the sake of transparency, I am going to write about how I'm really feeling today. This week has been a lot to handle. Work has been busy and somewhat stressful. I am traveling from Sunday through Thursday of this upcoming week and I feel unprepared and anxious about the trip. I haven't been keeping up with a regular exercise routine because [insert excuses]. I admittedly feel like a bit of a mess in this moment.
There are SO many amazing things in my life. First of all, I have a safe home that I get to come home to. And really, that should be enough. But the hustle and bustle of everyday life has me in a bit of an unsettled space. I have underlying anxiety that ebbs and flows. Sometimes it gets to the point where I have to take a nap to protect my little heart from beating out of my chest. The never ending checklist that fills up faster then I can tick off the boxes. No matter how many times I tell myself, "it's okay, it'll all be okay", it won't go away. Don't get me wrong, some of this I should be thankful for, it has helped me have success in my job and other aspects of my life. But, what I could do without is my body having a visceral anxiety response for no reason.
And I recognize and know ways of improving this. Exercising, eating a plant-based diet, getting a good night's sleep, making space to relax and take time for myself. The list goes on. For me, when I get in a bit of a rut, like now, those things feel impossible. But, it usually improves. The stress lessens a bit and I find that I can get back into a routine again. Just typing this out helped.
So there it is. I don't have anything profound to say. I do hope that if you are experiencing any stress right now in your life, be it work, love, finances, loss, that you are able to find moments of happiness and quiet.